just doing my best with the hand
I was handed.
PTSD has been a real bitch to me. Depression and anxiety are nemesis I have to battle daily. Addiction has been the biggest devil on my shoulder. There were moments survival looked a lot like dying! ITS ALL RIGHT IN MY FACE RIGHT NOW.
Self loathing is a weed I’M UPROOTING. I know when and where it was planted, I can have compassion for my journey and validate myself.
This is how I am combating it: When I have negative self talk or start to ruminate on a past mistake or am struggling with flashbacks, I look at it as a little invisible battle that is taking place behind the scenes. As soon as I identify it, I do my best to karate chop it with the truth. For example, I trip over my feet, and I typically say something myself along the lines of, “Dammit, Emma, you clumsy bitch, you are so embarrassing,” BUT THEN I STOP MID SENTENCE AND KARATE CHOP THAT BAD THOUGHT and replace it with “Emma, you are not always the most graceful but you land softly….” 😉
Watch the following video by Kati Morton, a Youtuber helping save the world, one video at a time, and what her suggestions are for dealing with self hate. She’s got some helpful suggestions.