Fear was.... Screaming.  At the top of my lungs, with everything I was, while his body and weight pinned my body up against the Fulton's Crossing basement of an apartment, in Everett, Washington.   Fear was, asking for help, begging through tears at the top of my lungs....but hearing the white of the apartment walls, and... Continue Reading →

Rude and Mean

Denise said it... I love it when Denise goes into storyteller mode.  Likewise, with Laura.  I realize... I... I like to listen.  I spoke once.  I talked.  I talked a lot.  Nothing happened.  When I spoke.  Nothing changed, except the way I viewed things because people and life were sure there to correct my poor... Continue Reading →


I knew my dad was a predator for a long time. Maybe predator is not the right term.  He is a kind man, afflicted with an empathy I know he has seen mirrored in his daughter.  I imagine we, his family, his offspring, we lives who were created by his are somewhat a mystery to... Continue Reading →


Yes, I'm a lil bit angry. Yes.  I have been depressed, but don't judge me!  If I wasn't depressed then I would be lying, you would be too.  NO - I don't need therapy. I realize I got nobody to hash things out with but I'm fine, I have a blog, if people want to... Continue Reading →

Yeah I’m Lost.

Yes. Don't judge me.  Please, cause if I'm anything, I've been a judge.  Not on purpose, but I saw stuff, saw a lot, and saw too much.  I am what I see I see what I saw I can not unhear or unsee the ick that has been a sick in me. My family has... Continue Reading →

Thank You, Society

Thank you, Society, for breaking down before I did, so I don't feel so grossed out....I no longer feel like a bitch for not liking our manipulative step sibling to all.  SS ---step-sibling, BIG BROTHER, Government, IDK....whatever is clever .....I don't feel bad saying I don't like Da Beer, or debir or King Eglon or... Continue Reading →

I Love You

I love you like the sun loves the moon. I can feel you but never quite see you because I fall asleep before you loom. But your glow I feel I know even when it's never been able to tell me so. My goal is to someday understand and then stand upright and show. I... Continue Reading →

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