Gotta Draw IN-WORD right now.

This is just....tooooo much for this girl anymore. Light be by the night sky as I navigate these turbulent seas that have made me dizzy, sick pushed me down to my knees. humbled as I fumbled I fumble. No longer soft spoken no hidden meanings or mumble. I do not please to understand the lessons... Continue Reading →

He was

Talking to himself....his weight against me, I watched as this person I loved....I had married, was ....lost to something.... "I didn't want it to come to this." He said. I knew I was in trouble. He was talking to himself. "I know where to put her bod."  He was talking to himself.  This was my... Continue Reading →


Fear was.... Screaming.  At the top of my lungs, with everything I was, while his body and weight pinned my body up against the Fulton's Crossing basement of an apartment, in Everett, Washington.   Fear was, asking for help, begging through tears at the top of my lungs....but hearing the white of the apartment walls, and... Continue Reading →

Rude and Mean

Denise said it... I love it when Denise goes into storyteller mode.  Likewise, with Laura.  I realize... I... I like to listen.  I spoke once.  I talked.  I talked a lot.  Nothing happened.  When I spoke.  Nothing changed, except the way I viewed things because people and life were sure there to correct my poor... Continue Reading →


I knew my dad was a predator for a long time. Maybe predator is not the right term.  He is a kind man, afflicted with an empathy I know he has seen mirrored in his daughter.  I imagine we, his family, his offspring, we lives who were created by his are somewhat a mystery to... Continue Reading →


Yes, I'm a lil bit angry. Yes.  I have been depressed, but don't judge me!  If I wasn't depressed then I would be lying, you would be too.  NO - I don't need therapy. I realize I got nobody to hash things out with but I'm fine, I have a blog, if people want to... Continue Reading →

Yeah I’m Lost.

Yes. Don't judge me.  Please, cause if I'm anything, I've been a judge.  Not on purpose, but I saw stuff, saw a lot, and saw too much.  I am what I see I see what I saw I can not unhear or unsee the ick that has been a sick in me. My family has... Continue Reading →

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